Quite often
I don’t feel as if I was enough.
I don’t know whether to amp it up
or bring it down to beg others the pleasure of a listen.
Was my words or inflextion lacking?
The pauses too long and the timing off
maybe the wrong taste visited your mouth that night.
I want to split apart and split.
Spread myself over a larger area then
right now I am capable of reaching and influencing.
Taking flight all over.
From one person to another
giving them gifts of deep thoughts and emotion.
Selfish thoughts are everywhere.
They are mostly in disguise
hiding the fact that they could do me good.
My perspective is cracked and skewed.
I can justify myself towards directions
that are not honorable under the impression I am doing others
A Great Favor.
Is talking to a friend shrinking my responsiblities… good?
Is skipping meals to finish another’s task… right?
Is making people happy though you are a complete stranger… possible?
Is their smile… genuine
when it lasts a second and is second guessed?
Does the smile matter?